Mascots For Beijing Olympics

I know the Olympics has come and gone but what the heck ..... the mascots are cute and my cousin (with Aunt Jo's help) managed to collect them all from Mc Donald's. I just had to take a photo.

Ryan and Caitlin

This is the first few pictures of them together and I know the quality sucks but we are just too tired to take nicer shoots. Ryan is excited about "his" new baby and he has been trying to poke her face and body, pull her hands and feet and all sorts of other gimmicks. Well, he's excited and enthusiastic about his sister and we do not blame him....he just need to learn and understand that at this point in time, Caitlin is still a baby and baby needs to be handle with care.

There were a few occasions where he tried to carry Caitlin and not knowing the right way to do it, Caitlin's head was wobbling (dangerously) and all these happened right in fronts of my eyes. Of course, I screamed !!!!

Then there's the chocolate episode; he asked for two pieces of chocolate and he had that cheeky smirk and only a mother can tell that he's up to no good. When I asked, he told me that one chocolate is for him and the other for his sister. I start to imagine Ryan pushing that piece of round chocolate into Caitlin's small mouth and start having goosebump. We have to do a lot of explaination for him to understand.

We know he meants well and that we have to educate him on the do's and don'ts when he's with his sister. But he's so excited and hyper and that's why we are so tired. So, these photos will do, for the moment.

Caitlin and her moods

Confinement Bliss

I'm now still in my confinement period and we have a lady helper or a confinement lady to help out. She takes care of all mine + baby's needs.

My job is to make sure that I have enough rest and sleep and eat all those nutritious food prepared by the confinement lady so that my body will make a good recovery. Hence, I have been eating and sleeping most of the time!! I so can get use to this. Life is good.

Caitlin Kho, God's gift

On that fateful day, 7 August 2008, all of us woke up late and we had to rush. We arrived at the hospital at 7.15 am after leaving Ryan with my aunt in Selayang. Traffic was horrible as there were road blocks but thankfully, we made it in time.

As they said, c-section is a planned delivery and everything went smoothly, as planned and baby Caitlin Kho, weighing 2.65kg arrived at around 1pm. I choose to have spinal injection/epidural instead of general anesthetics so that I am aware of what's happening. It was frightening but hubby was with me all the time, so that was a plus point. The only uncomfortable experience was that I felt nausea when the operation was about to take place but was immediately given some medicine and thank god the relief was immediate. I can feel people rubbing, touching my tummy and before I knew it, I heard Caitlin's first cry.

From where I was lying, I could see that she was pale. They cleaned her before bringing her to me. I cannot describe my feeling of seeing her for the first time. It was joy and definitely relief to see that she's well and has healthy lungs !!! I did tears and those are tears of joy as we welcome Caitlin Kho Yee Lin to the family.

Pregnancy: It's time and I'm going CRAZY

I'm now 39+ weeks pregnant and my last visit to my gynea indicated that baby is not engaged and my amniotic fluid is low and therefore, it's best to induce the baby since she's already full term. I'm fine with that and the date is set on 7.8.2008.

The next question is whether would this be a natural birth or c-section. I've been thinking a lot and each has its pros and cons. I remembered the time I had Ryan and even though it was a painless delivery as I was on epidural, I felt very disappointed with myself because I did not know how to push and in the end, he has to be vacuumed. I was also worried for him and I remember telling myself that if anything were to happen to him, it would be my fault and I had kept him longer than necessary due to my incompetency. I know I should not have that kind of thots or feeling but that's what went through my head. Thank god, everything was ok and he was fine. That was 6 years ago and I can still recall that feeling of being helpless. Given a choice I do not want that to happen again.

This time around and also due to my low amniotic fluid, I do not have confidence in myself and therefore have opted for c-section. I know that recovery will be longer and will be more painful compared to normal delivery but hopefully, as an offset, it would be less stressful. I'm no sure whether I made the right decision but then again that's life, we will not know. I'm also stressed that baby's head is not engaged and there's a chance that she's happily flipping around and I'm not sure whether will she ended up being breech just right before delivery!!

Please pray for a safe delivery and I can't wait to meet my daughter.